Leave me alone with my books and deeds.
 I am responsible for what I do and read.I take the responsibility of my deeds. I take the responsibility of the way I spent my time. I admit all that I did, thought, experienced.
I wish I could afford a pause to sharpen my wisdom and refresh my learning.  I wish I could draw a complete balance sheet  fairly,and honestly. I will do that even if it is risky. I must come clean for public scrutiny.
I want some time to repay those scholars who wrote,  thought,  did not sleep,  experimented, sailed across, crossed the mountains,  laid down their lives in their pursuit for knowledge and truth. I have to think with open eyes and write down my own experiences informing you all what ever I learnt, suffered, saw, found, lost, took away. I have a duty to return all back tothose scholars and for the next generation.
One thing to be sure- each coming day and generation is bound to be happier, shinier, wiser and will lead to further healthy growth.
I know I will not be for ever.
But before I leave, I must repay you all whatever I owe and handover what ever I have and can  but I must take away my sins that I do have with me begging  to you all for my sins and bidding you all a very good -forward looking never ending chain of never ending mornings with fresh untouched morning dews and sweetest twitters.
But never before I have really transferred my inner wealth to you all